It’s
been a while since I have blogged. The twins are here now and approaching 4
months old. I can’t believe how fast time is flying by. I am so grateful I had
a full 12 weeks maternity leave to spend with them. I would love to blog about
the delivery and each month that has gone by… but that’s just not real life
right now. I am even writing this on my lunch break at work..
I
wanted to blog again to look back and remember what life is like right now. As
a part time working mom I have learned a lot over the last month. I have a HUGE
respect for full time working moms (and part time working moms as well). Only a
working mom can truly understand the craziness of the evenings after work.
Somehow managing to get some food in you and your husband, play with the kids
for a few quick seconds before bath time and feeding is just the beginning.
After we quietly lay them down the real fun begins, bottle washing, laundry,
cleaning the kitchen, packing your lunch, picking out work clothes…ohh and then
one baby wakes up…then back at it before pumping one last time so you have
enough bottles for the next day and you can finally sleep (until one decides to
wake up again). The mornings are just as crazy. I wake up at 5:30 leave the
house at 7:15 only to finally get to work at 8:50 (no wonder I am already ready
for lunch when I get here). Pumping at work is an adventure to say the least
but I am so grateful to have an office with a locking door and a friend who has
a mini frig in her office. The days are long and exhausting. Yet I get the joy
of seeing the other side of the coin as well. I get to stay home Friday-Monday.
Let me tell you this can be just as exhausting. Monday I was soo tired I said,
“Man I can’t wait to get to work tomorrow so I can rest a little bit.” Full
time stay at home moms are always busy and rarely have a free second to do much
of anything. I know plenty of stay at home moms that give their whole self to
their kids each and every day. I bet some feel the same way I do. For when I
woke up on Tuesday I had a new energy and desire to spend the day with my
children. I truly think this love and energy comes from the Lord. It reminds me
of how He loves us. There are long days and maybe even LONG seasons and I know
he must get tired of what I am doing. Yet I feel like each morning His desire
to spend the day with me grows. The verses in Lamentations 3 have a new meaning
“The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end;
they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness (verses 22-23).
I
love the giggles the twins make now. I love their smiles when I walk in the
room. I love their coo’s and sounds. My heart longs to hug and kiss them and
keep them safe always. Who knew love like this could exist. I know I am going
to miss this phase of my life. It’s by far the hardest thing I have ever done.
I am blessed to have support from family and friends on a daily basis. I
couldn’t do it without the help of those close to me or the kind words of those
far away. I am excited to see what is store for our little family of four.
